Mashed Thoughts

Uh. I forgot what I was going to write. I should have wrote it down a few days ago. But I was always out and Karen was always on the computer since the other one is down. Well, I didn't fail chem. I was surprised since I got an 84! I was like OMG! How did this happen? I hope it's not wrong. Cuz I'll be VERY disappointed. and angry. So there's two more grades left to be posted.

I went to the mall, got the Fifth Element and Uru. Heehee. Yesterday I went to Science World. Nothing there. We got some lego people though. So that's good. What else? Um. We're going to go to Victoria on Thursday, Grouse grind on Wednesday, tomorrow I don't know. It might be raining. So Karen might not want to go anywhere. Bleh.

A gecko at ScienceWorld.

I can't believe I'm twenty.

I had a relatively quiet birthday. I went to work for my uncle. I had a headache. My mom bought me a mango ice cream cake. I wanted green tea but Karen likes mango so I said mango. Winnie and Vicki gave me Kill Bill 1 &2! And a Futureshop giftcard! They're so nice to me. Karen gave me a Starbucks giftcard so I can have my frappuccino. Heheh ^____^ She looooves me.

See I told you I'd put a background on it. What should I call it?

I just finished watching G.I. Jane. It's such a good movie. And Viggo Mortensen was in it!

Yay! For an early birthday present I recieved Bambi and Mulan DVDs. From my dad and my aunt. Heehee. And Karen got Mary Poppins, Van Helsing, and the Mummy. Yay! Lots of DVDs! Makes me happy.

Oh and I finished my taxes! Yay! Now to wait for the CIA or IRS or FBI people to come find me since I might have done it all wrong. It's my first time you know. My dad did it for me last year. I get $75 back! Yay!

Eee! And I just found out it's a FEMALE! What if it laid eggs?!

EEEEEE! Karen found a cockroach in our kitchen! EEEEEE! I'm so afraid now. We gotta move. NOW. I'm afraid. What if its got a nest somewhere? Karen trapped it under a cup. and we posted signs everywhere to warn our parents. EEEEEE! It kind of looks like this:

OMG! The econ exam was soo hard! It was ALL essay type questions and absolutely NO calculations! I BSed that entire exam! Shit. I probably failed it. Unless there is massive scaling. One can only hope.

Anyhoo. Yay! It's summer vacation! for two weeks. then it's back to school. Sigh.

Hmm. One more exam left. Eeecon. I don't want to study. I'm too depressed. I probably failed all my exams. sigh. Anyways. Here's two pics of the same people. I can't draw people. I need more practice and references! Sigh. These are for a friend. and her imaginary relationship with this guy called MICHAEL. Yes. Michael. Well, his name's actually Mark. But Michael sounds so much better! I like the second one better. She looks sort of like her. But then again I actually MADE it look like her. The other not so much. Needs tweeking. And the guy...well. It's up to her.

I'm so upset. Well. I'll be heading to my doom tomorrow. Wish me luck. Night.

Yep. I'm really screwed. Looks to me I'll be pulling an all nighter on wednesday. Stupid bio. Stupid chem.

I'm so SCREWED! Two days. Including today. Chem 211 and Bio. Stupid. chem and bio. Can't focus.

I'm hungry.

I wasted another day. Doing miscellaneous things. I should be studying bio. I hate it. I hate biology and chem. I hate it all. I don't want to be a doctor. Why do I have to do this?!

I think I'm going to add a background to this...AFTER finals.

Practicing. I can't draw people.

Kicking and more kicking. The fourteen mark question I didn't know how to do! AT ALL. I hope I don't fail. Stupid! Why didn't I put down benzene!? Stupid! Stupid!

3 to go.

Woo! One down four more to go! (But I'm kicking myself over some stupid mistakes >__<)

Eh. I'll probably go to bed soon. Tomorrow is the microbi final. I'm so not ready. I just don't want to study anymore. I'm tired. Tired of everything. I never pictured myself in working in a lab or as a doctor. It's all my family's want. I don't know what I want to do. Wish me luck tomorrow.

I don't know why I do these this. What a time waster. I should be studying microbi! The final's on Tuesday! Eeeee!!!!

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Counting down the days til finals. 5 more to go until hell.

Agh! I spent the whole two days doing NOTHING! I downloaded the Enterprise episode that I missed. Hee! Trip and T'pol. I love those two! I can't wait until "Bound." They're going to KISS! Yay!

Ah! Here some pics of that CUTE cousin I was talking about. Ok so this isn't a very good picture. But she IS adorable! She left yesterday. Went back to China. Why didn't I take more pictures?!

I did die today. I screwed up the interview big time. I couldn't answer a lot of the questions they asked me. And some of them I already prepared answers for! I was stuttering and saying um and yeah a lot. WTF was I doing?! All I could offer them was a smile. STUPID! Well at least I know that I have to work on my communication skills. I need to volunteer and interact with people. Sigh. At least I tried. I hope they take pity on me.

Stupid Co-op Interview

Phew! I didn't fail my chem midterm! both of them! I did pretty good on one of them the other. Well. At least I didn't fail.

Tomorrow is my co-op interview. I still can't believe I got selected. But I'm terrified! I'm so not good with answering questions. I'm going to DIE tomorrow. I hate this.

Spent the day walking the mall again. I didn't want to stay at home all day. Turns out there are a lot of sales going on. I bought a shirt at the Gap and mittens at Fairweather for a dollar! Yay for winter stock in spring! Yeah it matches my scarf and touque that I got from Shanghai.

I spent tonight playing with my baby cousin. She is SOO CUTE! I can't stop saying that. She must be the cutest baby EVER. And she's smart too. I bet she'll be one of those kid geniuses. I wish she'd stay here in Canada.

Weee! Long weekend!

So I went to metro today. And Old Navy was selling St. Patrick's day t-shirts for 97 cents! And there were these 49 cent bins too. I bought a touque and scarf for 1.97 cuz that's what the price tag said but Karen got her's for 49 cents! I'm so mad! Maybe I'll go tomorrow too. But I should go to church. It IS good Friday.

We went to eat sushi all-you-can-eat with everyone. I saw Xing Xing my baby cousin from China for the first time. She is SO CUTE! So adorable. But she's heading back to China. Gong ate a LOT today. That proves that he CAN eat. He just doesn't like Ma's food. Ha! But all he likes is salty and deep-fried stuff. He wouldn't listen to us and he drink that salty udon soup. Karen and I shared our food with him. We ate gyouzo(?), salad, seafood fried rice, seafood udon, cali rolls, bc rolls, dynamite roll and lots of other things. Gong also ate mou tuowe, and oysters and some others by himself! AND at the end he said he could eat some more! That he was only HALF-full! Heehee. We had fun.

But humph. I didn't get my green tea ice cream. You leave to go to the bathroom for a few minutes and they pay the bill already. HUMPH! Where's dessert?!

I think I'm hyperventilating. LOOK>>>

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interview for the Microbiology Co-op program."

I actually got selected for an interview. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO NOW!!!! I lied so much on my resume AND essay! Excellent communication skills. YAH RIGHT!! *hyperventilates*

Oh and I probably failed that chem midterm.

Why do I ALWAYS to this! I have a midterm on wed. Chem 211. I'm afraid. I don't know anything. I always fell asleep in class so I have no idea what the prof taught. I never keep up with my work! WHY? WHY? WHY? UGH! I hate myself. I shouldn't be in university. I really shouldn't. I hate school so much.

I'm so STUPID! ArgH! I MISSED the deadline to apply for med lab! I can't BELIEVE it! Why me?!

The sorting hat says that I belong in Hufflepuff!

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AH! I missed the first episode of Dragon Booster AGAIN!!!! I could kick myself! *mutters angrily*

Ooo I had a dream. I dreamt that we got a dog. I forgot how exactly. But he's smaller than Sunny! His original name was Lucky but we said Lucky had that name before. And it's an unlucky name. So I think we named him Sir _______ Lucky Bellington. Lucky being his middle name. I just forgot what his first name was! I know that we liked Bellington. There were these stray cats too. They were "kittens" but big ones. almost grown. They're mom was black and white and red? And they are afraid of people. There was a lilacpoint balinese in the group that I wanted but they all ran away following they're mum.

Finally it's the weekend! I'm building my website again. I didn't even finish the first one and now I'm on version 1.1. The old one was too boring. I wanted some colour. I think it looks nicer this way. Dunno. I'm probably not going to be finished anytime soon. I have to draw some graphics for it. It'll look too dull with just text. Anyways. I should be going to bed. So behind in everything.

Wee! Weeooweeooo! I finished my lab early today! No mishaps today baby! Except for when I mixed up the solutions. Forgot which was which. But it's ok! My friend did that too! So it doesn't count. (and the world goes kablooey) Here's Latte:

I handed the application in. There were so many. I probably won't get in. Oh well. No harm in trying. I should have put it in an envelope though. Everybody did except for a few. Too late now.

I guess I'm going to be a virologist. IF I get in the microbiology program. Let's hope so. Crosses fingers.

Well I finally finished my co-op application. Let's hope I get in for all this trouble.

Anyways, I've been reading at the bookstore again. I picked up A.I. Love You and it's so funny! Oh another funny manga is Cheeky Angel. The way the author draws the expressions and stuff soo funny!

Oh and I joined St. John Ambulance. Must do SOMETHING with my life.

Uh. It's so late must go to bed.

I am so pooped. I'm trying to write my rationale statement to apply to co-op. I suck at writing. Anyways I did this today. I like it. He's very twitchy. Too many espressos.

I think I passed the midterm.

Anyways I'm trying to to apply for microbi co-op but I seriously doubt I'll get in. I'm having serious doubts about working in a lab setting too. All these bad luck in the lab can't be all coincidences. They're SIGNS I tell you. Signs telling me to STOPDON'TWORKINALAB!!!!!!!! But I kind of dug myself a hole and I'm kind of stuck.

Well in 15 minutes I'm going to take my econ midterm. Wish me luck! I'll need lots of it. Heh.

We watched Cursed today. It was a free ticket so we had to go. I should have spent the time studying econ. What a lousy movie. I don't like how they portrayed the werewolves. The snout was too short in my opinion. It looked more like a bear wolf cross. Stupid. It wasn't scary at all. And I don't like that girl. I never did like her. She was in Casper and I didn't like her then and I don't like her now.

In other news, all my fish died. The copper one is MIA. Seriously. I don't know where she went! It's just an empty tank now. There's no body, no trace of her anywhere! It's so strange. But finally! An empty tank. I'll start over. Decontaminate it and get guppies instead. Then I'll start and insane genetic experiment by selective breeding! Muahaahahahahah!

Man I have a lot of studying to do tomorrow.

Huh! I'm so sleepy but Mei won't let me go. She wants me to help her on her math lab but I don't know any math anymore. And plus I slept at 3 yesterday. I'm dead. My brain is empty. So sleepy.

It's always the same. It's like I'm cursed. Cursed to use faulty equipment in the chem lab that makes me take so long to do the lab that I'm the last one to leave. Stupid.

We went out to eat today. My aunt and uncle came over from Los Angeles that's why. I'm trying to do my chem lab but I can't figure things out. I had the chem midterm today. It was a pretty easy test. Which is why I screwed up on it. >.< Grrr. I hate that. I KNEW it was wrong. But I couldn't figure out what. Turns out that it was suppose to be negative and positive. Argh. Stupid chem.

When I'm supposed to be studying what do I do instead? This! I shouldn't complain so much about how hard the tests are and how I didn't know anything. It's my freakin fault anyways.

So this is Java. He's part of a gang of street dogs named after types of coffee. Yep. I wanted to draw the dog in the Purina 30-day challenge commercial but I couldn't get it right. Java is the closest I got. I think he needs to be a little shaggier. ^ ^ I'm happy tonight. I'll be very stressed tomorrow!

Java Beans!

I wasted the whole entire reading break away. I should have been studying chemistry. I have a midterm on Monday. And I haven't started studying. I was going to study today. But I ended up not. I feel I don't know. Indifferent. Somehow I just don't want to do anything anymore.

I'm so thrilled with this. It's Tina's very belated birthday present. I think it's the best picture I've every done. She likes cute things so I drew the charaters as younglings. This would make such a good children's picture book. I might do more like this. ^ ^

I finally finished it! I'm so happy! It turned out better than I expected. Just goes to show that the more time you put into something the better it turns out. ^ ^ So happy. Here's "Just grey" in widescreen 16:9 format. Doesn't it look like a screenshot in a movie?

I give up...

I screwed up big time. I should have studied more for bio. There were so many things that I didn't know on the midterm. So dead. I hate bio.

I should have been studying microbi instead I drew this. What a waste of time. But lemurs! I love them.

- a friend when you're down -

I think I did ok on the chem test. It was five questions long. Two were short answer questions. I forgot the exact wordings I went over before the test so I made up some sentences. I think I used some terms all wrong. Eheheheh.

Deviantart's down. I have nothing to do. I SHOULD be studying. I have a chem 211 midterm tomorrow. Gonna fail...I haaaaate chem.

I hate chemistry. I screwed up on the lab today. My burette wouldn't work and I ended up not finishing the lab at all. I'll have to make it up next week. BUT it's midterm next week too. Oy. My head hurts. Did I mention I hate chemistry?

Something for Pixelatedfun who got my 2000th pageview. I didn't actually have one of those kiriban things so it's something small.

You Are 6 Years Old

6

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Six? How true.

Zip died. He was the longest living fish in our house. Oh well. I'll miss the little guy. Sigh. I'm back down to one fish AGAIN. The copper one. I think I'll name her Farah. I don't care if Karen thinks it's too girly. I like it. I shouldn't have gotten the new fish. Now I'll have to take care of the remaining one again. I was planning to get some white clouds instead of goldfish. Ah well. Next time maybe.

I'm still so sick. I hate being sick.

Longest outlining job EVER. I finally finished it. Now I can finally start on the background. Sigh. I didn't do any homework again. I feel too sick. My brain is fried.

Today was my grandpa's and cousin Meighen's birthday. Gong's eighty-eight today and Meighen's ten. I made these two cards for them. I did Gong's yesterday and Meighen's today. Heheh. My mom wrote the sheng re kuai le but I wrote the gong. She was having trouble using the tablet. How amusing. Anyways, we went to Monte Carlo's for dinner and had mango mousse cake. Pretty good. It was funny because Mei was supposed to give Yee Mein to Gong but she was giving him short strands. And Uncle Adrian was like you aren't supposed to give him short ones! Give him long ones! Apparently Yee mein represents long life or something. So Mei was digging in the dish trying to find a long strand. And when she found one, she was pulling at it to get it out and Uncle Adrian was like "Don't break it!" So everyone started helping Mei and digging apart the noodles to help her get the entire strand out. Heheh. It was funny. Everyone had a good time.

I'm sick. I don't feel very well. My nose is running away and I have a headache. It came on suddenly. I was fine yesterday. Now I'm sick. Stupid bacteria or viruses. Must find phage to killlll them. Whatever. I feel very blah.

My computer died AGAIN. And just when I finished outlining my pic of Grey. And I actually spent a fair amount of time on outlining too. Sigh. I'll have to do it all over. I'm reformatting my computer as we speak. My dad's teaching me how to do it. Sigh. I'll go to bed now.

I finished Prince of Persia yesterday. It's the best game ever! I love it. But I want the Prince and Farah to get together! Uh! But they don't! I want him to marry her like he said he would. But I want to get the next game now. I love how it is a story played out. And it's simpler than Tomb Raider too. Apparently Disney is making a Prince of Persia movie that is coming out this year or next year. I'm estatic but not entirely thrilled that Disney is doing it. They'll make it all kiddie. Stupid Disney. I don't have anything against Disney per se but Prince of Persia has slaying of monsters and stuff not suitable for kids. Oh well. Nothing I can do about it. I hope it's good.

On another note, the evil Maharajah has perished today. He was not doing so well these last few days; his fins were always clamped. Now he is really gone. Sigh. I only have two fish left. I wanted three. Oy. Should I get more or no? But I don't want FOUR fish. It's bad luck you know. Or so they say. Five is a bit much for a ten gallon tank isn't it. I don't now. I'll consult with Karen when she get's back.

It's snowing!

I put the new fish in the tank today. The copper one seemed very happy. I might name it Shadow 'cause she's like Zip's shadow following him around. She was exploring everything and swimming everywhere. Zip's not entirely pleased I think. He wants the tank all to himself maybe. Heh. The evil Maharaja is still clamping his fins. If he does not get better soon I might exchange him for a better fish. I'm like so crazy taking so many pictures of the fish. I took a few video clips too. I'll upload them if I can.

So today was the first day of school AGAIN. I haven't bought any books and they were all SOLD OUT! I bought a grundgy copy of chem though. It's alright. But not the best. The textbook's ok but the study guide's edges are a little messed up. Besides it was the last copy. Stupid chem.

Happy new year everyone!

What an eventful day it was. Mei made me wake up early and go shopping with her. We went to Metro but we didn't actually buy anything there. We were planning to get Moulin Rouge at Futureshop but they didn't have it in stock. Besides sales were mostly all over. Sigh. Until next year. All we got was a drink from Orange Julius for lunch. So we came home and took the car and I drove to the Richmond Futureshop. And boy was there a lot of traffic! I guess everyone is returning gifts or things bought on boxing day. The traffic was insane! I had to wait so long for people to let me in. Come on people! If everyone was a little nicer... Anyways Mei bought MR - the two disk one (of course) and we came back home. Then we had lunch at 3:30. Ma was watching this Chinese movie that is so silly/funny. This guy pretended to be dead and this girl was trying to revive him. He was trying to scare her and made her believe that he was a ghost that came back to haunt her because she killed him. It was really funny. But I don't tell it funny. In fact it sounds rather dull when I tell it. But then again all my versions of funny stories are always dull. Hmm. Whatever. Then off we were again to Petcetera. I bought two new fish. One orange and the copper..ish. The orange one is apparently now named the evil Marharaja. (Spelling please?) After the one in the Moulin Rouge. (Yeah we like it that much.) Mei said she didn't like the orange one and said his eyes looks evil like the Marharaja so yeah, the name stuck. eM for short. The other doesn't really have a name yet. We've been trying Copper, Coppertone, Copperback...I don't know yet. They're in quarentine right now.

My dad has been trying to fix my computer. He fixed it but he screwed up something and now it has only 10Gb in total! And it had 100 Gigs before! Arg. 10Gb is so little what am I going to do with less than 10Gbs?

I started playing Gaia again. I like to fish. Before there was nothing to do there and now they add this thing and enticed me back. Heh. What a waste of time.

Woo! I passed pysc after all! AND with a 85 I might add. I'm so delighted. But I'm crazy. Almost 1 and I'm still up on the computer. Crazy.

I went shopping again today with K. I bought a Roots hoodie and a potato plushie! I love it! It's so soft and cute and makes me smile lots. Tomorrow I'm going to Micheals I think. I hope. I want to buy scrapbooking stuff. Heh. I still need to finish Tina's present. Taking too long. Anyways goodnight.

Ha! I'm back from a day of boxing day shopping. Didn't get much really. But that's not important. It's the excitement of getting up at 5 in the morning and pushing past crowds and crowds of crazy stampeding people. We were late this year. We went at 6 instead of 5 so we didn't have to line up at Futureshop. I got Hellboy and Karen got some other boring DVD with Sandra Bullock in it. We also went to Metro and I got some clothes and socks there. I wanted some candy canes but they weren't really on sale so bah. So tired. I wanted to go to Michaels and look around maybe buy some 50 cent scissors but no stupid people had to have accidents on all the bridges so we ended up not going to Richmond. I'll go tomorrow maybe. Another day of shopping tomorrow. Yay!

I hope everyone is having a wonderful Christmas! We're having ham today. :)

Yay! I passed chemistry! with a high mark of 69! heehee!

So far so good. I got 87 in anthro. I hope I didn't fail psyc. It'll be sad if I fail a multiple choice course. Very sad indeed. I don't know what to do now. I don't know if I should go to the mall or stay home. Decisions, decisions.

I love doing that too. Mmm warm laundry.

I should be studying psyc. More that half the day come and gone. And still haven't cracked open the text. Look at it. Sitting there. Mocking me....

Anyways Karen's taking her math exam right now. I hope she's doing well. She studied so hard for it, I really hope she passes.

Yay! The worst is over. I wrote my chem final today. I wasn't as bad as I thought. At least I finished it all...I hope this is not a false sense of security only to end up failing....O_O...I hope not.

So it begins....

What should I do??? I kind of want to go into CompSci but I don't know if it is reeeaally what I want. Sure I took CompSci100 and I like the simple programming with Visual Basic but I don't really know if I will like the other courses. I know I don't like math but if I go into it then I'll have to take a bunch of math. Ugh. What to do...what to do...

YAY! T'pol's stupid husband released her from their marriage!!!! Now she can finally get with Trip! Yes, I watch Star Trek. Heehee I got my sister watching it too cause she loves romances. I do too. Hee! Ugh. Must study.

Studying is hard. I have a hard time concentrating. Huh. Maybe due to the fact that I stayed up til 3 reading. Bleh. I'll be so glad when finals are over.

Ivana got fired on the Apprentice. Too bad. But I didn't agree with her taking her skirt off. That was too much. Don't people ever learn?! You're on national television for crying out loud! Don't do such stupid things!

I probably won't be able to put this in my essay. It's too long. I'll put it here just in case.

An Akoucaurian myth tells of how Dran was created jointly by Kaiou and Grev. Kaiou laid eggs that became Dran, the sun, which shone brightly in Dran’s sky while Grev created the moons that needed Kaiou’s sun to shine. Kaiou fashioned the Akoucau by burning some of her breast feathers and fashioning the first Akoucau out of the ashes while Grev did the same but only managed to create misshapen creatures called Pecau. When Kaiou saw that the Akoucau had no food, she created the chi-mik bird from drops of her blood for the Akoucau to eat while Grev created plants that bore no nuts or fruit. When Grev saw that all of Kaiou’s creations were better than his, he was furious. He created storms, volcanoes, earthquakes and all that was bad in the world and told the Pecau to destroy the chi-mik bird’s eggs so that the Akoucau may starve to death. When Kaiou saw what her brother did, she created the Lolau and Pogoi plants by planting some of her tail feathers in the ground and told the Akoucau how to grow and harvest their nuts. She also told them to save the chi-mik bird eggs by taking them high up into the Huino tree, which she created, so that they may be safe. Grev became so angry and spiteful that he assumed the form of the Pecau and began to wreck havoc and chaos on the Akoucau. Kaiou protected the Akoucau by exiling Grev into the heavens. Grev gained his revenge by swallowing the sun. When Kaiou created another Grev fought her and is still fighting in the heavens today. The Akoucau believe when the night comes it is because Grev has swallowed the sun and but the sun rises again because Kaiou lays another. As it was then, so shall it be now.

I should be doing my Anthro essay. This sucks. My culture doesn't make sense. I didn't realize that creating a culture that makes sense would be so hard. And it's due tomorrow too. Sigh. Ow. I think I strained my neck reaching for toilet paper. 0.0;

Anyways I went out for lunch today with my Bible study group. It was this place on Broadway where we get to choose what to eat and they cook it for us. It was pretty good. I had fun.

Oy. Better get back to the essay.

Every day is some day.

My mom's sad/angry, my grandpa's sad, my dad's angry, everybody else is angry. I have such a screwed up family. Such problems. Stupid. I feel very angry at my dad. I don't know why he doesn't let my grandpa live with us.

Tension's high right now.

I feel like a bobblehead on the bus.

But now is not the time for this. Everyone's angry. So scary. So much yelling. I should go hide in my room if I what's best for me. Sometimes ignorance is bliss.

Here I am wasting time again. Ah pooey. I guess I should be studying chem. I'll be complaining AGAIN by the time it's finals. Sigh. It never ends.

So I had this dream last night or rather this morning or rather this afternoon because I woke up at 1:30. Teehee. Anyways. It must be the Star Trek episode I watched combined with Andromeda. Trance was there and she was helping one of those "normal" augments. I don't exactly know what happened. Heheh. But then there was this turtle and I was making a home for it out of alfalfa spouts and other vegetables. Then I discovered that I can "cheat" on Neopets. In front of my house there were these items that were on the sidewalk. Well not on the sidewalk they were each in a little pit that fit them perfectly. There were neggs and books and other things and I discovered that I could take them out and each time I jumped the items would refresh and refill the pits. My sister and I got a lot of neggs and stuff and there were blueberries too! Haahaa! And talking flowers. Yeah so we had all these items and we took them in the house and took more items and they were piling in the house. Then I was like how are we going to get them in the computer??? Scan them? Haha. What a stupid dream.

I printed out some of my artwork at superstore yesterday and I like the result. The colours were really rich and beautiful. Huh. My dad said oh why can't you print it out at home? I scoff. What with our printers?! I don't think so!

Wooooo! I passed my chem midterm! I'm so happy.

Tomorrow is Halloween. I'm going trick-or-treating with my little cousin. I feel so embaressed. I'm so old and still going. I mean I'll be twenty next year. sheesh. But I still look young enough to be 14 or so. Heeheehee.

I should have studied more on pysc. It was a pretty easy test if I knew what I was doing. If I only knew. I should be studying chem right now. The midterm's on thursday. Cramming this entire week. But at least I finished this contest pic for thefelinecanine at deviantart. I really like it but I think I went overboard on the background. I wanted to draw vines like the ones at school on the math building but I just couldn't capture it exactly so I just omited it.

EVER. I just screwed up big time AGAIN. Ether and water don't mix! How could I have been so stupid! So I had to rotorvap the ether out and so I had a lot of water in that so I had to use a lot of ethanol. But then my compound turned into oil. So I didn't finish the lab obviously. But seriously I should not work in a lab. A nice desk job would be perfect.

I had a dream. It was nice and sort of warm feely movie-type dream. But it wasn't in the beginning. I don't really know what happened in the beginning. I forgot. Where I start to remember is when this girl - played by Keira Knightley - lived with a bunch of her family and relatives that were very...uh...traditional or as I like to say very Chinese-like. Like nosy and traditional and strict and traditional and ruled the girl with an iron-fist or tongue and lots of rules. LOTS of rules. They even gave her a piece of paper that stated all the rules and what they were going to say if she broke them. 0.0' Well, the girl was simple and happy even with her overstrict life and eventually found a boy. (Aww. How sweet.) Anyways they were just about to share their first kiss when her entire family burst in through the door and were aghast at what she was doing with the boy and started yelling at her and so on and so forth. So they send her away to fix her up. I don't know what happened but then she was at the countryside at a homely farm where she worked happily away from her overbearing family. There was another girl there too, a maid apparently and she worked at the farm too but I didn't see her. So my dream ended with the maid calling to the girl and she responded and left the loft and the camera moved up outside and there where there was a family of ducks. The parents just had their ducklings. The ducks were all brownish but one special little duckling had a little red in his down and he was called Red duck by the girl. Fade out.

Woohoo! I managed to get through the anthro midterm. It wasn't as hard as I expected but I'm positive that I got a few wrong. There's one that I know is wrong. But eh. Can't dwell on the past. As long as I get an A I'll be happy.

Today was career's day at UBC. I got some free stuff. IBM was giving out these cute little plastic containers filled with office supplies. Hee. Me like. I got Kraft dinner too. Maybe I'll try it tomorrow. But yuck. I don't like macaroni and cheese. Maybe I'll just eat the macaroni.

Speaking of tomorrow. I'm going to the first meeting of the stamp club. I'm curious to what sort of people go to these things. I went to a Christian bible study on Wednesday and I was the only asian in the group. And there were only five people in my group including me and they are all Caucasian. I felt like I didn't fit in. And I didn't talk much either. They probably thought I was mute or stupid. I kept giving looks though when the guys did or said something weird. And I guess one of the girls understood my looks cuz she laughed. I'm always like this when I don't know people. I don't talk. Then people think I'm isolating them when I'm not. I just have trouble thinking of what to say. I can come up with stuff later on but on the spot no. I am so lacking in social skills. It's a wonder that I have any friends at all. And what's more they all go to church and I felt so embaressed because I haven't gone in a long time. Maybe I'll go with Annie to her church. She's Protestant though. And I'm SUPPOSE to be Catholic. I sort of want to be baptized. I've been thinking about it a lot lately. But I want to build a stronger relationship with God first. Or do I do it the other way. Baptize first and then relationship? I don't know. I'm so confused. Maybe I'll ask my group.

Shit. I screwed up on my chem lab. The funnel was leaking and I didn't know until a couple minutes later. I managed to transfer the bulk of the solution into another funnel but I don't know... Anyways I better start studying anthro. Midterm tomorrow.

I saw Farenheit 9/11 yesterday. It's a pretty good movie. And it's convincing. I didn't like Bush before and now I don't like him even more. I hope that Kerry guy wins. Ha I bet the whole world wants Kerry to win except maybe for the Americans themselves. I don't know maybe a country founded on war needs a "war man," as Bush described himself, to lead the country. I feel sorry for the Iraq people. The familiy members of the innocent people who were killed by American soldiers will hold grudges against them forever. And eventually that will lead them to attack the US and of course the US will retaliate. It's a never ending cycle of hate. So many people died for nothing. Sigh. But I shouldn't really say. I haven't been actually following American politics.

I just came back from finishing a chem lab and omg! I was so slow! I finished everything but still it was very tight. I was so slow that my TA left before me! AND he was a substitute too. Name's Steven or something. Might be that one that my friend is crazy about. lol. The whole lab was almost deserted. I was the third last to leave. I have to work faster. Heh and I shouldn't become a lab person.

Ah another weekend wasted doing nothing. I SHOULD have been reading chem. But nooo. I had to go on the computer all the time and watch TV. I just finished watching Independence Day. Great movie. When I first watched it I was so scared. And now that I watch it again it's like nothing.

Ugh! Everyone's asking me to do stuff for them. I'm doing everything for everyone! I'm so angry. What about MY things?! I have to do my stuff too! If I help someone that means I get less time to do my things and then I get frustrated and upset then I don't feel like doing my own work anymore and that means I don't ever do it and then when it's time for the exam I have to cram! I then I get even more upset and binge. Stupid. I hate my life.

I don't want to read. I'm trying to help my sister in math but I'm having trouble. I don't even know how to do the stuff anymore. School sucks. Maybe I'll just graduate with average grades and get any job somewhere.

Ugh. Is there food anywhere? I'm going to start binging again. Can't stop. Must eat.

Another Friday. Lovely. The anthro quiz was relatively easy. If I had studied better for chapter three I'd probably get it all right. I forgot to put down that homo habilis scavenged for meat. Whatever.

I went to an icebreaker at 5 today. It's actually my sister's club but she also joined another that had the icebreaker at the same time, in the same building AND they were beside each other. So I posed as her. I managed to get two plushies. Sweet. We had to leave early though because we had to go out to dinner with a family friend. It was embarressing because we were like an hour late. And it was a busy restaurant too. But oh well.

I'm so behind in chemistry. I'm apparently suppose to be up to chapter 6. I've only read chapter 1. o_0; Lots of catching up to do this weekend.

I made $15 doing a survey for 1 and a half hour at the Anthsoc building. Pretty sweet. Easy money. If only I knew about them last year. I'd be rich! Heheh. Not really.

I joined some clubs today at UBC. I joined MISA, SOS and a stamp and coin club. I didn't plan on joining the stamp club. I got sucked in by the person running the booth. I saw him dancing in the rain the other day and of course automatically assumed he was crazy (even though he said he wasn't). So today I saw him at his booth and I said that I saw him dancing in the rain and he laughed. So I asked him about his club. And he was so enthusiastic I couldn't disappoint him by not joining and it was only $2. So I did. I collect stamps anyways. Not seriously though. I like the new ones. And only the pretty ones. Animals are always good on stamps.

So after all of this my sister and I went to get Campbell Soup. They were giving them out on the field. So not to lose out on this opportunity, I went several times during the day. So in total we have 6 cans. These guys got a whole 24 case! We probably could have gotten more if we hadn't gone looking for Tower Beach. Took us so long to get there and by the time we got back the Campbell people were gone. Eh. Maybe they'll come back tomorrow. :)

I finally got around to setting up a online journal. What a bore. It's midnight and I'm not in bed. I should be but I'm not. My mom's gonna come down any minute now and yell "WHY AREN'T YOU ASLEEP YET?!!" Not that I really care. It just makes me want to stay up later. I don't have school tomorrow so I'm gonna do what I please. But still, I have a Anthro quiz on friday so I have to study tomorrow. And I have to be awake in order to do that. Whatever. That a blah entry.

Woah. Finished microeconomics. Annie and I went to celebrated by going to the mall. Heh. We always do that. I think it's the third time we went to the mall after finals. It's like a tradition. Even thought there's nothing at the mall. Turns out Dave Chalk was there giving seminars or something. We got free pens and chocolates shaped like computers and also entered two contests. Wonder what else will there be.

Started working on the website again. Winnie lent me her dreamweaver book. It should clear a lot of things up.
I want to go to Victoria.

I'm crazy. I bought so many of those freakin neopet McDonald toys. 2 bucks each. I'm going bankrupt. But I must have them allllll.

On a sadder note. Happy died. Sunny's brother. He wasn't even 4 years old yet. Kidney problems or something. He couldn't pee. They euthunized him this morning. It's so sad.

Ugh. We lost. And what's worse is the Calgary managed to win the second round. Pah. At least Morrison is in Team Canada. WHICH WON THE WORLD CHAMPIONSHIP! Wee! Go Canada! If I ever have kids they'll either play hockey or soccer. Or both.

School ended. And it's starting again on Tuesday. Sucks. Sucks lemons.

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