Every day is some day. 

My mom's sad/angry, my grandpa's sad, my dad's angry, everybody else is angry. I have such a screwed up family. Such problems. Stupid. I feel very angry at my dad. I don't know why he doesn't let my grandpa live with us.

Tension's high right now.

I feel like a bobblehead on the bus.

But now is not the time for this. Everyone's angry. So scary. So much yelling. I should go hide in my room if I what's best for me. Sometimes ignorance is bliss.

Here I am wasting time again. Ah pooey. I guess I should be studying chem. I'll be complaining AGAIN by the time it's finals. Sigh. It never ends.

So I had this dream last night or rather this morning or rather this afternoon because I woke up at 1:30. Teehee. Anyways. It must be the Star Trek episode I watched combined with Andromeda. Trance was there and she was helping one of those "normal" augments. I don't exactly know what happened. Heheh. But then there was this turtle and I was making a home for it out of alfalfa spouts and other vegetables. Then I discovered that I can "cheat" on Neopets. In front of my house there were these items that were on the sidewalk. Well not on the sidewalk they were each in a little pit that fit them perfectly. There were neggs and books and other things and I discovered that I could take them out and each time I jumped the items would refresh and refill the pits. My sister and I got a lot of neggs and stuff and there were blueberries too! Haahaa! And talking flowers. Yeah so we had all these items and we took them in the house and took more items and they were piling in the house. Then I was like how are we going to get them in the computer??? Scan them? Haha. What a stupid dream.

I printed out some of my artwork at superstore yesterday and I like the result. The colours were really rich and beautiful. Huh. My dad said oh why can't you print it out at home? I scoff. What with our printers?! I don't think so!

Wooooo! I passed my chem midterm! I'm so happy.

Tomorrow is Halloween. I'm going trick-or-treating with my little cousin. I feel so embaressed. I'm so old and still going. I mean I'll be twenty next year. sheesh. But I still look young enough to be 14 or so. Heeheehee.

I should have studied more on pysc. It was a pretty easy test if I knew what I was doing. If I only knew. I should be studying chem right now. The midterm's on thursday. Cramming this entire week. But at least I finished this contest pic for thefelinecanine at deviantart. I really like it but I think I went overboard on the background. I wanted to draw vines like the ones at school on the math building but I just couldn't capture it exactly so I just omited it.

EVER. I just screwed up big time AGAIN. Ether and water don't mix! How could I have been so stupid! So I had to rotorvap the ether out and so I had a lot of water in that so I had to use a lot of ethanol. But then my compound turned into oil. So I didn't finish the lab obviously. But seriously I should not work in a lab. A nice desk job would be perfect.

I had a dream. It was nice and sort of warm feely movie-type dream. But it wasn't in the beginning. I don't really know what happened in the beginning. I forgot. Where I start to remember is when this girl - played by Keira Knightley - lived with a bunch of her family and relatives that were very...uh...traditional or as I like to say very Chinese-like. Like nosy and traditional and strict and traditional and ruled the girl with an iron-fist or tongue and lots of rules. LOTS of rules. They even gave her a piece of paper that stated all the rules and what they were going to say if she broke them. 0.0' Well, the girl was simple and happy even with her overstrict life and eventually found a boy. (Aww. How sweet.) Anyways they were just about to share their first kiss when her entire family burst in through the door and were aghast at what she was doing with the boy and started yelling at her and so on and so forth. So they send her away to fix her up. I don't know what happened but then she was at the countryside at a homely farm where she worked happily away from her overbearing family. There was another girl there too, a maid apparently and she worked at the farm too but I didn't see her. So my dream ended with the maid calling to the girl and she responded and left the loft and the camera moved up outside and there where there was a family of ducks. The parents just had their ducklings. The ducks were all brownish but one special little duckling had a little red in his down and he was called Red duck by the girl. Fade out.

Woohoo! I managed to get through the anthro midterm. It wasn't as hard as I expected but I'm positive that I got a few wrong. There's one that I know is wrong. But eh. Can't dwell on the past. As long as I get an A I'll be happy.

Today was career's day at UBC. I got some free stuff. IBM was giving out these cute little plastic containers filled with office supplies. Hee. Me like. I got Kraft dinner too. Maybe I'll try it tomorrow. But yuck. I don't like macaroni and cheese. Maybe I'll just eat the macaroni.

Speaking of tomorrow. I'm going to the first meeting of the stamp club. I'm curious to what sort of people go to these things. I went to a Christian bible study on Wednesday and I was the only asian in the group. And there were only five people in my group including me and they are all Caucasian. I felt like I didn't fit in. And I didn't talk much either. They probably thought I was mute or stupid. I kept giving looks though when the guys did or said something weird. And I guess one of the girls understood my looks cuz she laughed. I'm always like this when I don't know people. I don't talk. Then people think I'm isolating them when I'm not. I just have trouble thinking of what to say. I can come up with stuff later on but on the spot no. I am so lacking in social skills. It's a wonder that I have any friends at all. And what's more they all go to church and I felt so embaressed because I haven't gone in a long time. Maybe I'll go with Annie to her church. She's Protestant though. And I'm SUPPOSE to be Catholic. I sort of want to be baptized. I've been thinking about it a lot lately. But I want to build a stronger relationship with God first. Or do I do it the other way. Baptize first and then relationship? I don't know. I'm so confused. Maybe I'll ask my group.

Shit. I screwed up on my chem lab. The funnel was leaking and I didn't know until a couple minutes later. I managed to transfer the bulk of the solution into another funnel but I don't know... Anyways I better start studying anthro. Midterm tomorrow.

I saw Farenheit 9/11 yesterday. It's a pretty good movie. And it's convincing. I didn't like Bush before and now I don't like him even more. I hope that Kerry guy wins. Ha I bet the whole world wants Kerry to win except maybe for the Americans themselves. I don't know maybe a country founded on war needs a "war man," as Bush described himself, to lead the country. I feel sorry for the Iraq people. The familiy members of the innocent people who were killed by American soldiers will hold grudges against them forever. And eventually that will lead them to attack the US and of course the US will retaliate. It's a never ending cycle of hate. So many people died for nothing. Sigh. But I shouldn't really say. I haven't been actually following American politics.

I just came back from finishing a chem lab and omg! I was so slow! I finished everything but still it was very tight. I was so slow that my TA left before me! AND he was a substitute too. Name's Steven or something. Might be that one that my friend is crazy about. lol. The whole lab was almost deserted. I was the third last to leave. I have to work faster. Heh and I shouldn't become a lab person.

Ah another weekend wasted doing nothing. I SHOULD have been reading chem. But nooo. I had to go on the computer all the time and watch TV. I just finished watching Independence Day. Great movie. When I first watched it I was so scared. And now that I watch it again it's like nothing.

Ugh! Everyone's asking me to do stuff for them. I'm doing everything for everyone! I'm so angry. What about MY things?! I have to do my stuff too! If I help someone that means I get less time to do my things and then I get frustrated and upset then I don't feel like doing my own work anymore and that means I don't ever do it and then when it's time for the exam I have to cram! I then I get even more upset and binge. Stupid. I hate my life.

I don't want to read. I'm trying to help my sister in math but I'm having trouble. I don't even know how to do the stuff anymore. School sucks. Maybe I'll just graduate with average grades and get any job somewhere.

Ugh. Is there food anywhere? I'm going to start binging again. Can't stop. Must eat.

Another Friday. Lovely. The anthro quiz was relatively easy. If I had studied better for chapter three I'd probably get it all right. I forgot to put down that homo habilis scavenged for meat. Whatever.

I went to an icebreaker at 5 today. It's actually my sister's club but she also joined another that had the icebreaker at the same time, in the same building AND they were beside each other. So I posed as her. I managed to get two plushies. Sweet. We had to leave early though because we had to go out to dinner with a family friend. It was embarressing because we were like an hour late. And it was a busy restaurant too. But oh well.

I'm so behind in chemistry. I'm apparently suppose to be up to chapter 6. I've only read chapter 1. o_0; Lots of catching up to do this weekend.

I made $15 doing a survey for 1 and a half hour at the Anthsoc building. Pretty sweet. Easy money. If only I knew about them last year. I'd be rich! Heheh. Not really.

I joined some clubs today at UBC. I joined MISA, SOS and a stamp and coin club. I didn't plan on joining the stamp club. I got sucked in by the person running the booth. I saw him dancing in the rain the other day and of course automatically assumed he was crazy (even though he said he wasn't). So today I saw him at his booth and I said that I saw him dancing in the rain and he laughed. So I asked him about his club. And he was so enthusiastic I couldn't disappoint him by not joining and it was only $2. So I did. I collect stamps anyways. Not seriously though. I like the new ones. And only the pretty ones. Animals are always good on stamps.

So after all of this my sister and I went to get Campbell Soup. They were giving them out on the field. So not to lose out on this opportunity, I went several times during the day. So in total we have 6 cans. These guys got a whole 24 case! We probably could have gotten more if we hadn't gone looking for Tower Beach. Took us so long to get there and by the time we got back the Campbell people were gone. Eh. Maybe they'll come back tomorrow. :)

I finally got around to setting up a online journal. What a bore. It's midnight and I'm not in bed. I should be but I'm not. My mom's gonna come down any minute now and yell "WHY AREN'T YOU ASLEEP YET?!!" Not that I really care. It just makes me want to stay up later. I don't have school tomorrow so I'm gonna do what I please. But still, I have a Anthro quiz on friday so I have to study tomorrow. And I have to be awake in order to do that. Whatever. That a blah entry.

Woah. Finished microeconomics. Annie and I went to celebrated by going to the mall. Heh. We always do that. I think it's the third time we went to the mall after finals. It's like a tradition. Even thought there's nothing at the mall. Turns out Dave Chalk was there giving seminars or something. We got free pens and chocolates shaped like computers and also entered two contests. Wonder what else will there be.

Started working on the website again. Winnie lent me her dreamweaver book. It should clear a lot of things up.
I want to go to Victoria.