I should be studying psyc. More that half the day come and gone. And still haven't cracked open the text. Look at it. Sitting there. Mocking me....

Anyways Karen's taking her math exam right now. I hope she's doing well. She studied so hard for it, I really hope she passes.

Yay! The worst is over. I wrote my chem final today. I wasn't as bad as I thought. At least I finished it all...I hope this is not a false sense of security only to end up failing....O_O...I hope not.

So it begins....

What should I do??? I kind of want to go into CompSci but I don't know if it is reeeaally what I want. Sure I took CompSci100 and I like the simple programming with Visual Basic but I don't really know if I will like the other courses. I know I don't like math but if I go into it then I'll have to take a bunch of math. Ugh. What to do...what to do...

YAY! T'pol's stupid husband released her from their marriage!!!! Now she can finally get with Trip! Yes, I watch Star Trek. Heehee I got my sister watching it too cause she loves romances. I do too. Hee! Ugh. Must study.

Studying is hard. I have a hard time concentrating. Huh. Maybe due to the fact that I stayed up til 3 reading. Bleh. I'll be so glad when finals are over.

Ivana got fired on the Apprentice. Too bad. But I didn't agree with her taking her skirt off. That was too much. Don't people ever learn?! You're on national television for crying out loud! Don't do such stupid things!

I probably won't be able to put this in my essay. It's too long. I'll put it here just in case.

An Akoucaurian myth tells of how Dran was created jointly by Kaiou and Grev. Kaiou laid eggs that became Dran, the sun, which shone brightly in Dran’s sky while Grev created the moons that needed Kaiou’s sun to shine. Kaiou fashioned the Akoucau by burning some of her breast feathers and fashioning the first Akoucau out of the ashes while Grev did the same but only managed to create misshapen creatures called Pecau. When Kaiou saw that the Akoucau had no food, she created the chi-mik bird from drops of her blood for the Akoucau to eat while Grev created plants that bore no nuts or fruit. When Grev saw that all of Kaiou’s creations were better than his, he was furious. He created storms, volcanoes, earthquakes and all that was bad in the world and told the Pecau to destroy the chi-mik bird’s eggs so that the Akoucau may starve to death. When Kaiou saw what her brother did, she created the Lolau and Pogoi plants by planting some of her tail feathers in the ground and told the Akoucau how to grow and harvest their nuts. She also told them to save the chi-mik bird eggs by taking them high up into the Huino tree, which she created, so that they may be safe. Grev became so angry and spiteful that he assumed the form of the Pecau and began to wreck havoc and chaos on the Akoucau. Kaiou protected the Akoucau by exiling Grev into the heavens. Grev gained his revenge by swallowing the sun. When Kaiou created another Grev fought her and is still fighting in the heavens today. The Akoucau believe when the night comes it is because Grev has swallowed the sun and but the sun rises again because Kaiou lays another. As it was then, so shall it be now.

I should be doing my Anthro essay. This sucks. My culture doesn't make sense. I didn't realize that creating a culture that makes sense would be so hard. And it's due tomorrow too. Sigh. Ow. I think I strained my neck reaching for toilet paper. 0.0;

Anyways I went out for lunch today with my Bible study group. It was this place on Broadway where we get to choose what to eat and they cook it for us. It was pretty good. I had fun.

Oy. Better get back to the essay.

Every day is some day. 

My mom's sad/angry, my grandpa's sad, my dad's angry, everybody else is angry. I have such a screwed up family. Such problems. Stupid. I feel very angry at my dad. I don't know why he doesn't let my grandpa live with us.

Tension's high right now.

I feel like a bobblehead on the bus.

But now is not the time for this. Everyone's angry. So scary. So much yelling. I should go hide in my room if I what's best for me. Sometimes ignorance is bliss.

Here I am wasting time again. Ah pooey. I guess I should be studying chem. I'll be complaining AGAIN by the time it's finals. Sigh. It never ends.

So I had this dream last night or rather this morning or rather this afternoon because I woke up at 1:30. Teehee. Anyways. It must be the Star Trek episode I watched combined with Andromeda. Trance was there and she was helping one of those "normal" augments. I don't exactly know what happened. Heheh. But then there was this turtle and I was making a home for it out of alfalfa spouts and other vegetables. Then I discovered that I can "cheat" on Neopets. In front of my house there were these items that were on the sidewalk. Well not on the sidewalk they were each in a little pit that fit them perfectly. There were neggs and books and other things and I discovered that I could take them out and each time I jumped the items would refresh and refill the pits. My sister and I got a lot of neggs and stuff and there were blueberries too! Haahaa! And talking flowers. Yeah so we had all these items and we took them in the house and took more items and they were piling in the house. Then I was like how are we going to get them in the computer??? Scan them? Haha. What a stupid dream.

I printed out some of my artwork at superstore yesterday and I like the result. The colours were really rich and beautiful. Huh. My dad said oh why can't you print it out at home? I scoff. What with our printers?! I don't think so!

Wooooo! I passed my chem midterm! I'm so happy.

Tomorrow is Halloween. I'm going trick-or-treating with my little cousin. I feel so embaressed. I'm so old and still going. I mean I'll be twenty next year. sheesh. But I still look young enough to be 14 or so. Heeheehee.

I should have studied more on pysc. It was a pretty easy test if I knew what I was doing. If I only knew. I should be studying chem right now. The midterm's on thursday. Cramming this entire week. But at least I finished this contest pic for thefelinecanine at deviantart. I really like it but I think I went overboard on the background. I wanted to draw vines like the ones at school on the math building but I just couldn't capture it exactly so I just omited it.

EVER. I just screwed up big time AGAIN. Ether and water don't mix! How could I have been so stupid! So I had to rotorvap the ether out and so I had a lot of water in that so I had to use a lot of ethanol. But then my compound turned into oil. So I didn't finish the lab obviously. But seriously I should not work in a lab. A nice desk job would be perfect.

I had a dream. It was nice and sort of warm feely movie-type dream. But it wasn't in the beginning. I don't really know what happened in the beginning. I forgot. Where I start to remember is when this girl - played by Keira Knightley - lived with a bunch of her family and relatives that were very...uh...traditional or as I like to say very Chinese-like. Like nosy and traditional and strict and traditional and ruled the girl with an iron-fist or tongue and lots of rules. LOTS of rules. They even gave her a piece of paper that stated all the rules and what they were going to say if she broke them. 0.0' Well, the girl was simple and happy even with her overstrict life and eventually found a boy. (Aww. How sweet.) Anyways they were just about to share their first kiss when her entire family burst in through the door and were aghast at what she was doing with the boy and started yelling at her and so on and so forth. So they send her away to fix her up. I don't know what happened but then she was at the countryside at a homely farm where she worked happily away from her overbearing family. There was another girl there too, a maid apparently and she worked at the farm too but I didn't see her. So my dream ended with the maid calling to the girl and she responded and left the loft and the camera moved up outside and there where there was a family of ducks. The parents just had their ducklings. The ducks were all brownish but one special little duckling had a little red in his down and he was called Red duck by the girl. Fade out.

Woohoo! I managed to get through the anthro midterm. It wasn't as hard as I expected but I'm positive that I got a few wrong. There's one that I know is wrong. But eh. Can't dwell on the past. As long as I get an A I'll be happy.

Today was career's day at UBC. I got some free stuff. IBM was giving out these cute little plastic containers filled with office supplies. Hee. Me like. I got Kraft dinner too. Maybe I'll try it tomorrow. But yuck. I don't like macaroni and cheese. Maybe I'll just eat the macaroni.

Speaking of tomorrow. I'm going to the first meeting of the stamp club. I'm curious to what sort of people go to these things. I went to a Christian bible study on Wednesday and I was the only asian in the group. And there were only five people in my group including me and they are all Caucasian. I felt like I didn't fit in. And I didn't talk much either. They probably thought I was mute or stupid. I kept giving looks though when the guys did or said something weird. And I guess one of the girls understood my looks cuz she laughed. I'm always like this when I don't know people. I don't talk. Then people think I'm isolating them when I'm not. I just have trouble thinking of what to say. I can come up with stuff later on but on the spot no. I am so lacking in social skills. It's a wonder that I have any friends at all. And what's more they all go to church and I felt so embaressed because I haven't gone in a long time. Maybe I'll go with Annie to her church. She's Protestant though. And I'm SUPPOSE to be Catholic. I sort of want to be baptized. I've been thinking about it a lot lately. But I want to build a stronger relationship with God first. Or do I do it the other way. Baptize first and then relationship? I don't know. I'm so confused. Maybe I'll ask my group.

Shit. I screwed up on my chem lab. The funnel was leaking and I didn't know until a couple minutes later. I managed to transfer the bulk of the solution into another funnel but I don't know... Anyways I better start studying anthro. Midterm tomorrow.

I saw Farenheit 9/11 yesterday. It's a pretty good movie. And it's convincing. I didn't like Bush before and now I don't like him even more. I hope that Kerry guy wins. Ha I bet the whole world wants Kerry to win except maybe for the Americans themselves. I don't know maybe a country founded on war needs a "war man," as Bush described himself, to lead the country. I feel sorry for the Iraq people. The familiy members of the innocent people who were killed by American soldiers will hold grudges against them forever. And eventually that will lead them to attack the US and of course the US will retaliate. It's a never ending cycle of hate. So many people died for nothing. Sigh. But I shouldn't really say. I haven't been actually following American politics.