I just came back from finishing a chem lab and omg! I was so slow! I finished everything but still it was very tight. I was so slow that my TA left before me! AND he was a substitute too. Name's Steven or something. Might be that one that my friend is crazy about. lol. The whole lab was almost deserted. I was the third last to leave. I have to work faster. Heh and I shouldn't become a lab person.

Ah another weekend wasted doing nothing. I SHOULD have been reading chem. But nooo. I had to go on the computer all the time and watch TV. I just finished watching Independence Day. Great movie. When I first watched it I was so scared. And now that I watch it again it's like nothing.

Ugh! Everyone's asking me to do stuff for them. I'm doing everything for everyone! I'm so angry. What about MY things?! I have to do my stuff too! If I help someone that means I get less time to do my things and then I get frustrated and upset then I don't feel like doing my own work anymore and that means I don't ever do it and then when it's time for the exam I have to cram! I then I get even more upset and binge. Stupid. I hate my life.

I don't want to read. I'm trying to help my sister in math but I'm having trouble. I don't even know how to do the stuff anymore. School sucks. Maybe I'll just graduate with average grades and get any job somewhere.

Ugh. Is there food anywhere? I'm going to start binging again. Can't stop. Must eat.

Another Friday. Lovely. The anthro quiz was relatively easy. If I had studied better for chapter three I'd probably get it all right. I forgot to put down that homo habilis scavenged for meat. Whatever.

I went to an icebreaker at 5 today. It's actually my sister's club but she also joined another that had the icebreaker at the same time, in the same building AND they were beside each other. So I posed as her. I managed to get two plushies. Sweet. We had to leave early though because we had to go out to dinner with a family friend. It was embarressing because we were like an hour late. And it was a busy restaurant too. But oh well.

I'm so behind in chemistry. I'm apparently suppose to be up to chapter 6. I've only read chapter 1. o_0; Lots of catching up to do this weekend.

I made $15 doing a survey for 1 and a half hour at the Anthsoc building. Pretty sweet. Easy money. If only I knew about them last year. I'd be rich! Heheh. Not really.

I joined some clubs today at UBC. I joined MISA, SOS and a stamp and coin club. I didn't plan on joining the stamp club. I got sucked in by the person running the booth. I saw him dancing in the rain the other day and of course automatically assumed he was crazy (even though he said he wasn't). So today I saw him at his booth and I said that I saw him dancing in the rain and he laughed. So I asked him about his club. And he was so enthusiastic I couldn't disappoint him by not joining and it was only $2. So I did. I collect stamps anyways. Not seriously though. I like the new ones. And only the pretty ones. Animals are always good on stamps.

So after all of this my sister and I went to get Campbell Soup. They were giving them out on the field. So not to lose out on this opportunity, I went several times during the day. So in total we have 6 cans. These guys got a whole 24 case! We probably could have gotten more if we hadn't gone looking for Tower Beach. Took us so long to get there and by the time we got back the Campbell people were gone. Eh. Maybe they'll come back tomorrow. :)

I finally got around to setting up a online journal. What a bore. It's midnight and I'm not in bed. I should be but I'm not. My mom's gonna come down any minute now and yell "WHY AREN'T YOU ASLEEP YET?!!" Not that I really care. It just makes me want to stay up later. I don't have school tomorrow so I'm gonna do what I please. But still, I have a Anthro quiz on friday so I have to study tomorrow. And I have to be awake in order to do that. Whatever. That a blah entry.

Woah. Finished microeconomics. Annie and I went to celebrated by going to the mall. Heh. We always do that. I think it's the third time we went to the mall after finals. It's like a tradition. Even thought there's nothing at the mall. Turns out Dave Chalk was there giving seminars or something. We got free pens and chocolates shaped like computers and also entered two contests. Wonder what else will there be.

Started working on the website again. Winnie lent me her dreamweaver book. It should clear a lot of things up.
I want to go to Victoria.

I'm crazy. I bought so many of those freakin neopet McDonald toys. 2 bucks each. I'm going bankrupt. But I must have them allllll.

On a sadder note. Happy died. Sunny's brother. He wasn't even 4 years old yet. Kidney problems or something. He couldn't pee. They euthunized him this morning. It's so sad.

Ugh. We lost. And what's worse is the Calgary managed to win the second round. Pah. At least Morrison is in Team Canada. WHICH WON THE WORLD CHAMPIONSHIP! Wee! Go Canada! If I ever have kids they'll either play hockey or soccer. Or both.

School ended. And it's starting again on Tuesday. Sucks. Sucks lemons.

HOCKEY FEVER! WE SCORED! WE SCORED! What a game tonight! Three overtimes. Those poor players. They must have been exhausted. But Canucks won 5-4 against Calgary! Woo! GO CANUCKS!

Heeheehee. I volunteered for 50/50 again. Winnie and I got demoted! We were at the Seimen's Club before but today we were put up on the balcony floor...where the cheap people are. Sigh. I have never done so much yelling in my life. My throat is sore. But I did have fun. Didn't make as much money though. But I got to watch the third period! Eee! It was so exciting! The guard that was standing there was so nice. He let us watch standing in the doorway. We inched closer and closer and still he didn't say anything. He knew we were volunteers though. Arg! Volunteer's get 50% off on food! But we have to have our uniforms still on and I didn't have enough money to buy anything. Sigh. But anyways! It was such an incredible game! Canucks won 6-1 against Colorodo Avalanche! And we got to sit at the very end of the game. These people left early and gave us their seats. And we saw Canucks score so many times! Eeee! Watching them on TV is nothing compared to watching them live! I want to volunteer again so I can watch the game again! Heehee! So happy.

50/50 tickets! $20,000 jackpot tonight! Woah what a rush! I was volunteering for 50/50 tonight at GM place selling raffle tickets for the Canucks for Kids Fund. 1 ticket for $2, 3 for $5, or 7 for $10. At first I was stuttering and shy but I eventually got into the mood and was just out there. Before the game I sold about $345 worth of tickets and during the 1st intermission I brought in $245. Wee! That's more than $600! I sold the most out of the friends I went with. Maybe I'm a natural! Heehee.

I should be doing my english essay right now. Not that it matters, it's crap anyways. Why do I always leave things to the last minute?! It's almost 12 and I haven't finished yet. Spent the whole night thinking...and surfing in between. Shit. It's 30% of my mark! And undoubtedly I'll get a C-. I'm hoping for at least a C+. Bah. I'm never going into med school. Not like this. Sigh. Better get back to the essay... One more page.

Poo. Behind in my studies as always. I managed to start volunteering at the SPCA. Such adorable dogs there. There were 7 puppies there on Sunday. So cute! They are rottweiler and husky cross I think. I wish I can take one home with me. But that'll never happen.

I had a dream that Ma was sort of a cannibal and had eaten our two younger brothers. Mei and I were afraid so we hid in the washroom. I said not to talk about cannibalism so loudly cuz that's the reason why she ate them. So we stayed in the washroom and made muffins. I screwed mine up. Sad. I can't cook even in my dreams.

A lot has happened since I last since updated. I'll try to go in chronological order.

First I went to an Aquarium Sleepover with Karen on the 13th. I was kind of disappointed. It didn't have as much omph as what I've heard about last year. We basically had a slide show...which was interesting...but boring after a while. I started figiting near the end. Then a game, which was basically the highlight of the entire evening. We were blindfolded with one hand tied to our back and we had to work together to create a bowl out of cardboard that can hold water with Derek guiding us with his eyes. Of course it was an entire failure. Then we had to make plankton that was not as fun as box making. We ended the evening in the beluga viewing area where we spent the rest of the night. They showed Pirates but by then it was already 2 a.m. and I still had to study for the Bio midterm on Monday so I went to bed/sleepingbag after I watched my fav part: the entrance of Jack Sparrow. Eeee! Sigh. Early in the morning we woke up to the sight of the male beluga's huge penis, oops i mean paenis, hanging out in plain view. Apparently he was trying to get some with one of the girls but she wasn't having any of it. Heehee. Spent the rest of the morning just talking. Yawn. Boring. At least I got this Brother Bear growth chart...as a joke about my height. Heheh.

Skip the midterm week. Nothing to say but that I did poorly on all of them except for Physics. Yay physics is phun.

But during the wed of midterm week my grandpa was taken to the hospital. He was very weak and almost lost the will to live and he had to go through dialysis right away. Turns out he wasn't getting enough protein and his kidneys were failing. So I spent my springbreak with him at St. Paul's Hospital. I was really worried. I thought he was going to die. He has recovered now. Thank God! But he's not living at Knight anymore. He's living at my aunt's place. I wish that my dad could be more understanding and let him live here. Ma talked to him but they went into an argument and he said that when he's old he doesn't need our help and taking care of. Yeah right. Sometimes I resent him so much. I wonder what happened to his own grandparents.

I AM: a potato
I WANT: a potato
I HAVE: hair
I WISH: to be done my hw
I HATE: hw
I FEAR: moths
I HEAR: voices
I SEARCH: for candy
I WONDER: when will life end
I REGRET: nothing
I LOVE: animals
I ACHE: with stupidity
I ALWAYS: sleep
I AM NOT: dead
I DANCE: on wednesdays
I SING: like a hyena
I CRY: with tears
I AM NOT ALWAYS: myself
I WRITE: nonsense
I WIN: by default
I LOSE: on purpose
I CONFUSE: everyone but especially myself
I NEED: what I lack
I SHOULD:do my homework

My parents came home on Saturday. It's Ooookay. We didn't burn the house down. I just burnt some rice in the microwave...thank goodness they can't smell it anymore. hehheh... Weee-ell, my mom bought home lots of junk food...and she managed to smuggle in some shweet tiny mandarin oranges...dispite the fact the dog at the airport was on to her. heheh. She managed to convince the security guard that it was the squid that the dog smelled...this proves something about airport security doesn't it? They are so into catching terrorists that they don't really care about smuggling of fruit anymore...hehehe...start the marijiana smuggling operation! hehhehe...I hope I don't get arrested for saying that. sorry. I'll shut up with the marijiana stuff now...Damn City of Glass by Doug Coupland that you must read...that is where it all started the marijianna grow-ops and stuff.
My mum also bought a mp3 player home! It's ok I guess but it has this particular buzzing noise in the background that is present even when I turn the volume off. Huh. funny. Piece of junk. Karen is supposedly using it now. I'm content with my CD player though Karen wants one too since she is the one with all the CDs 0_0'.

School sucks as always. For my bio 140 project I got to do Armadillidium vulgare aka pillbugs. yay. that was a sarcastic yay if you didn't already know. I get to do pillbugs again. They don't have many books on pillbugs. Damn it. I wanted the snail or cricket not some bug that I've done in grade 10! pf. Anyhoo, I can't do anything about it. Gotta stick to my project topic whether I like it or not.

Brrr it's freakin cold. The house it an icebox! I heard it's gonna snow some more tomorrow. Blast it!

Today was the first day back to school. I'm taking physics now instead of anthropology. I hope I have a good teacher like Iqbal. It's five courses on MWF. What a load! Just my English books cost $97 and that's excluding two. English is such a costly language. I started reading The Glass City and I have to say it's pretty interesting. It's all about the author's take on Vancouver and he writes in short blurbs so I don't get really bored. Heh. Maybe I'll read some more before I go to bed.

It was also my grandpa's birthday today. He's either 86 or 87; my relatives couldn't agree on that point. We went to his place to eat. Nothing much. But as I said it was FREAKIN COLD. My toes froze. I can't feel them anymore. I think I need to amputate them or something. Sunny's water froze too and he jumped up the sink to drink water cuz he couldn't drink any of his. Darn cold weather. It's either unbearably hot or icy cold. But then it's always cold in my house. No matter what the weather.

Hello hello! I'm not dead...yet...not that anyone cares...anyhoo...Happy New Year! Blah blah blah. School is starting on Monday. Aaaand I haven't bought my books yet. Sheesh, talk about procrastinating! My new year's resolutions?

1. Do my homework ahead of time; that includes keeping up to date in all my courses.
2. Visit grandpa more often.
3. Bathe Sunny more often. (very much needed, he stinks!)
4. Exercise very day to lead a healthy active lifesyle. (Always on my list)
5. Quit Neopets and any other online games (currently it's Runescape, wanna play with me?)
6. Volunteer at a hospital.
7. Get at job.
8. Read more.
9. Improve on my artwork.
10. Don't play so long on the computer. (Oops! Already broke that one)

Oh I forgot:11. Sleep earlier.

My parents went to Hong Kong and lately I've been sleeping at 3 a.m.! Crazy! I can barely keep awake during the day!